Listened to "ben" by Jackson 5 and "I'll remember you" by No Secrets countless times today.And I cried listening to both of them in the morning.Then Angelina and Joanne made me cry again during our mass con in the morning.And finally,I cried like aqain just now reading Joanne's post.

I sound like some cry baby.But really,I never thought I would miss anyone this much,much less 35 people.Really.I was talking to Joanne in the morning,and we were saying that we used to think that we love dance alot alot alot.Not that we don't love dance,but I realised that I love dance BECAUSE of the'93 dancers.Because of all 35 of you,and lao shi.Not entirely of course.But mostly.

The rest of you,non nh dancers,must be thinking that I'm crazy.But really,this is a feeling not many get to know.And I dare say that unless you're in this family,you won't quite understand what we're going through.

I hate to use the "L" word so I shall say that cultural pot. was the sec 3s final major performance with the whole of dance.Somehow,the word "final" hurts less that the "L" word.To the people whom I helped to do nose shadow,I'm sorry if I screwed up your make-up,but this is the final time I'm doing it for you.

Before cultural pot,during rehearsal when we were sitting down,Evelyn made Joanne and I cry.Like all hope was lost,like it was the end of everything.Then backstage,Nicholas made the sec 3 girls at the other side,except brave olivia who kept calling us idiots for crying right before a performance,cry.And he came to apologise and comfort us.Then,we affected the boys,whom in turn affected us.And the cycle goes on.The boys were super cute!They did silent brotherhood pumpings and lay down in some flower formation to "cake" their emotions.Yilin was laughing and crying at the same time at them,and she ended up looking like shit XD

The performance was super great!Then after that we did "hey hey hey ha!" and dance cheer and all.

I'm typing the not-so-interesting events here because I don't want to forget this night.The night of my finale major performance with the whole of NHDS.Really,I'll miss all of you alot alot alot.It's like we're as close as family,or closer.And family means no one gets left behind.

There's dance tomorrow.Which is both good and bad.

Dance is medicine.Dance is hope.Dance is love.Dance is comfort.Dance is a bucket full of memories.Dance,or rather,this family,the 35 of you,are everything to me.

I'm afraid that after tomorrow means 1 less dance practice with all of you.I'm afraid that after saturday means 1 less performance with all of you.I'm afraid that time passes so fast,too fast.I'm afraid of losing all of you.

Sec 3s!Lets treasure the time that we have left,and always remember to keep in contact (=

P.S. Angelina's blog is super cute and funny!