and I use to be like her.

Today,12 November 2008.The first time I'm typing bad stuff about my father.

I've always tried to give other people the impression that I live in this very happy family,my parents love me like I'm the world to them and I have no worries at all.But today,I've had enough.I'm a failure.And it hurts to admit that I've failed.Failed in trying to have such a cosy little happy family.

When I was little,my parents had no time for me.I hardly even saw them,hardly even spoke to them much.My life revolved around my many classes(of which I enjoyed most),my maid and best friend,and grandpa.Oh and then in Kindergarden I had a little "boyfriend" sort of thing but that's a different story altogether.

Then,in primary school,my mother quit her banking job and worked part-time,because I always told her that I missed her when she went to work.So in primary school,well to be exact from p1 to p4,I had a really very happy,blissful family.I was a daddy's little girl and had a mummy who doted on me,and on top of that,a loving caring grandpa.My cousin also went to my house everyday after school cause we went to smps together,and we had so much fun.

Then,when I was in p4,grandpa died suddenly.In p5,My cousin went to sec 1 and didn't come to my house anymore.So I was left with my parents,who still doted on me very much.

In secondary school,my father got a new job in some company belonging to our ex-church friend.And he changed.I don't mean to blame his new job,but he has really changed ever since then.Adrain Tan said it might be some mid-life crises in man.But even then,why does this male menopause change my father so drastically?

We don't talk anymore,I don't call him Daddy anymore.Instead,he always scolds me for no reason,and insults me like I'm the dumbest person ever lived.Just the other day,he said something like my brain had some problem.How hurting is that?In front of him,I have no respect,no dignity.I'm treated like a maid,like an emotional punching bag.I don't want any material wealth.If possible,I just want my dad back this chrismas.

Ok I shall end now.I'm crying like crazy and I don't want anyone to see me in this state.

Bye.And treasure your dads.